My Sphere of Madness

This is where I empty my brain. Read, or don't. I'll leave that up to you.

Things that should never have been

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It wasn’t supposed to happen like this
– you weren’t supposed to give me that kiss.
We never should have started at all,
this twisted game of ‘who will fall?’.

You weren’t supposed to say what you did
– you shouldn’t have seen that which I hid.
I shouldn’t have smiled, you shouldn’t have said “Hi.”
Instead of “See you around,” I should have said “Goodbye.”

We shouldn’t have met, we shouldn’t have talked.
When you said, “Come dancing?” I should have walked.
It wasn’t supposed to happen this way.
You weren’t supposed to be the one to make me sway.

You shouldn’t have asked me – I should have said, “No.”
Instead of “Okay,” I should have said, “I have to go.”
It’s not meant to be, it is time that we stop.
It’s a game we can’t win; no one’s coming out on top.

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Written by Ainee

May 19, 2014 at 00:28

Come back

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Baby, come back. Don’t leave me here alone.
You know too well I’m no good on my own.
I was always a better me whenever we were together.
You were the heart of me. Baby, you made me better.
Without you I feel weaker every day
and I wonder how long this warmth will stay.
‘Cause you left and took my light with you when you went.
Until then I’d kept the darkness at bay, kept this restless soul bent.
But when you are not here, I don’t know how long it will be
before the person you made me cease to exist – I’ll cease to be me.
Baby, please return to me and bring me back that light,
bring an end to the darkness you left me in – banish this eternal night.
Baby, come back. Without you I am without hope; there is no day.
Please return my days to me . And this time, promise you’ll stay.

Written by Ainee

February 8, 2014 at 03:46

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I am

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I ain’t shattered, but I ain’t whole.
I’m living, breathing, but I’ve got no soul.
I’m a desperate being of terror and pain,
I have nothing to lose and I have nothing to gain.
I am all and I am nothing – I’m a gust of cold air.
I am your hope and dreams – I’m your deepest despair.

Written by Ainee

January 1, 2014 at 22:48

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It’s ALIVE!

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So, uhm, I just realized that it’s been almost two years *gaspshockhorror* since last time I posted anything here. I have no excuse.

But if you thought this blog was dead, you were WRONG! What can I say – I do like to surprise.

I do not make new year’s resolutions, I don’t really see the point. But, I will say this – I’ll search my notebooks and wreck my brain a bit and come up with something new for you guys… If there’s anyone still out there? (Hellooooooo?!) I’m not counting on it, but hey, you never know!

So, with this post I’m already a better bloger than last year. And if you’re lucky, I might turn out to be a really great one! Not that you should expect too much, of course, ’cause I’m not making promises. But for now, I like the thought of it, finding somthing new to share with you. Actually, I’m gonna go and see if I can’t dig up something for you patient few 😉

Catch you later!

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January 1, 2014 at 20:17

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It never happened

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I’ll burn my bridges – let it go, leave it all behind.
I won’t regret, I will forget – I’ll erase it from my mind..

Written by Ainee

February 26, 2012 at 03:35

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Would you?

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“Would you leave me if I asked you to?”

“Do you want me to?”

“Would you?”

“Yes, if that’s what you wanted.”

“Would you not fight for me?”

“Only if you wanted me to.”

“What if I lied and said no?”

“I would know.”

“How?”

“I know you too well.”

Written by Ainee

February 14, 2012 at 00:18

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I blame the fanfiction: Part III

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No, this time I’m not actually blaming the fanfiction.
I blame real life, work and all other things in between.
Still, the fanfiction does have this way of reeling me in when I should be writing other things.
Like poetry. Or short stories. Non-fanfiction ones, that is.

I’d love to have more time to write, but I rarely have the focus to do so.
My mind keeps jumping from one thing to another and before I know it, my entire day has gone by.
The same happens the next day and the next and the next…

Then there’s the holiday…
At least it was supposed to be a holiday.
Don’t know what happened to it, but now it’s almost over.
Three days left and then it’s back to normality.
I won’t have the time to write much before reality comes crashing down again.

I don’t like it. Not in the least, to be honest.
I wish I had the ability to focus and set all other things aside so that I could concentrate.
I fear it’s a fruitless wish…

I don’t make New Year’s resolutions, I think it’s a silly tradition.
Still, if I was to make one for 2012, it would be this:
Concentrate – Write

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December 30, 2011 at 02:25

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